Just to Tired

Sitting here Thinking,
Wondering, Needing,
Not understanding,
Why I'm here,
Where I'm headed,
Or what exactly it is I fear,
if it's the Blood Ridden scars,
or the Pale Blue bruises,
that wont disappear,
I guess the thought of losing again,
is really to clear,
The Vision of Hate,
The Pain of a Broken Heart,
is to Powerful,
I feel like I'm in a permanent state
of a horror film,
I don't know if I want to continue,
with every second that goes by,
I'm dying a little more,
I don't know if I have the courage,
to find out if I'm the lucky one to live,
or just another sad ending of a sad life,
A terrified strife,
Careless to believe,
to have thought,
to be horrified and distraught,
towards nothing but everything,
wanting hope,
wanting joy,
oh where,
oh where,
is anything but a lost soul,
that's been deployed,
tears stream like crystal gems,
down a soft smooth cheek,
creating a river,
that I will forever weep,
A rocky path of everything
but what's always put last,
sitting here now,
I wish I could,
but adding me to the crazy mess,
I hold on my own shoulder's
would create more issue's than desired,
and right now,
I'm just to tired!

What do you do?

What do you do
when you give up the on that means the most to you
what do you say
when the one you love
just walks away
you know he loves you too
and there is nothing you can do
what happens when you fall asleep
and you don't want to wake up unless he is right there with you
when all you want to is is hear his voice
when all you need is for him to just be near
you feel sick to your stomach knowing there there is nothing
nothing at all left to do
when you know right from wrong
and two soul mates being ripped apart
by stupid actions
choices made
regrets done
where do you go next
how do you move on
when everything is gone
when there is nothing left
what do you say!?
when he is the only one you dream about
think about
want in your life
each and everyday?!
what do you do?

FATE

I wake up
and want to see your face
I fall asleep
and want to listen to you breathe
I roll over
and want to feel your skin next to mine
how do I live without you here
How do I live without your soothing touch
I think of you all the time
I miss us so much
I miss your scent
Your adorable little laugh
The way I get lost in your brown eyes
and all our little inside jokes
that no one understands but us
I think about the one
and how she wouldn't want this
how she wouldn't want us apart
I think about how you and I have always had one heart
I wonder if you think the way I do
because I know you feel this way too
put us in the same room
and its inevitable that we find one another
we are drawn
and cant help how we feel
our LOVE is to REAL
I think about all the things
we are suppose to be
and wonder when Fate will bring you back to me?!