happiness

I wont say I cant
I never say I don't
I wouldn't say impossible
I couldn't say I shouldn't
so all I can do is try
to reach for the beautiful warm blue sky
when the sun is shining and warm
I will just smile and try harder
when the stars are among us
looking down with there grace
I will sleep and let my mind wonder
When times are rough
and nothing seems like enough
I will simply remember
to smile
and be tough
things will always get better
think positive
no matter the weather
:)

I cant help but smile

Seeing you
Just makes me smile
makes me relax
and breaks my wall
Hearing you
makes me weak
and strong in the same moment
Listening to you
is like a song
a lullaby
and I feel like I belong
I don't know how
and I don't know why
but I am finally starting to see
What I really want in my life
I know that you have changed my path
even if its temporary
because I don't know how long you will last
your like my own drug
something that I cant describe
for some reason you bring happiness
peace and mind
I don't want to think of you leaving
because that just makes me sigh
I am happy you are here
so lets have fun

or at least try

Please

Tears roll down my face
as someone holds me within their embrace
Things are happening way too fast
The pain hits me with a full out blast
I reach out for you but your not there
As I realize its too late, my heart starts to tear
How will I make it on my own?
Why did you leave me here all alone?
I'm so afraid without you
Please come back and come back soon
I hate this feeling of regret
I hate this pain that you have left
I would do anything to be back in your arms
Cause thats a place I know I won't be harmed
Nothing I say can change your mind
But please remember our love was divine
I love you so very much,
You could make me melt everytime we touched
You still hold the key to my heart
So please say this isn't real,
please say we will never part

Just love me

I need a man
not a little boy
someone to treat me with respect
not like his toy
Someone who wont pretend
who wont talk shit
who wont break mends
someone who will make
the bruises go away
not make them stay
make the pain dissipate
the fear disappear
I need a partner to protect me
to watch over me
to just let me be me
to not judge me
to not use me
to see me and
not want to change me
I need a man to.......
Just Love Me!

So Long

Go ahead
Treat me like shit
Be like the rest
yeah act like,
whats in your pants
I didn't do anything wrong
Yet you still treat me like I'm your toy
The girl you think you can put down,
and destroy
Well go Fuck yourself,
I'm done with your mess
Just tried to help
and you still think its okay,
to be like the ones before
you treat me like I am the path you walk upon

go ahead
Yep you lost me
Because I'm done
done with your B.S
Go ahead walk your path
Remember live it like its your last
I have no more advice after that!
So LONG!

honey dew mist

chocolate eyes gazed into his pale blue sea
hoping all was well and together they would be
disapearing like a honey dew mist
he faded away
his touch began to disipate
and she still had blood flowing scars screaming
she thought loving him would be redeaming
face turning sapphire without a breath
her body under so much stress
she knows there was never a chance
to make him see
what she was
and who she could be
how she would help him
become everything he wanted to be
caramel skin bruised
a soul abused
her last hope used
her sarrow gone
now she dont have anywhere to belong
he wont giver her a chance
now she cant sing her song
wont even give her a glance

tell me now

how does it feel?
to know that he wakes up in the morning
and your not the one he thinks about
how does it feel to believe you have won
but something that was never there for the taking
how does it feel to know that you are not really what his heart desires
tell me now what you are really thinking because in the end your just a little thing
a altered path of temporary romance
tell me now what it feels like to know his heart is not yours
that you don't hold a thing of him
that in an altered state of mind you think you do but in reality you know the truths
tell me please how you handle it when everyday your still on your knees
trying to fight it lying to yourself and hiding whats reality
just so you can have your duality
tell me in the morning do you see everything
do you see that you can never keep him satisfied
that all things in hand your just trying to hide them
how does it feel to know?

getting ready to knock it out

How do I say anything
How do I tell someone that don't even see me
how I really feel
how do I stand up to say everything
How do I wait for the day
I have no reason here to stay
My soul is gone
in his hands forever more
my heart is in pieces
the only thing I can do
is pack my bags and walk out the door
I am sad and weakened
never to be seen forever tore
if I cant speak to him
I would rather be dead laying on the floor
he is my dreams
my wish
my everything
I cant cover anything
its time I say this
time to lay everything out

A songless birds hearbroken fate

I keep trying
I keep pushing forward
I do what I feel is right
but for some reason
at the end of the day
I feel like I have done wrong
That I have done something to deserve
disappointment
I feel that I am not able
able to believe anymore
that I am not able
to be anything anymore
I feel guilty
ashamed
taken over and cant be
Understood
I try to stay on a straight path
but something tells me
I did something wrong
I am not whole when I am alone
it makes me feel like a coward
to go home alone
But night after night
since I gave you up
this is what I deal with
This is what helps me stay tough
it took me too long to figure out
what path I wanted to take
now the only thing I can do is wait
hope for our promise to take
and one day be thankful
for our gracious fate

Our Gift

I know many things in life
I know I have always made mistakes
Have gotten scared
Have pushed everyone away
I am trying not to do that
I am trying to stay
I am trying to do things the right way
but I don't feel right
I wish it was still you
that I would fall asleep to everything
I wish it was still you that everything was the same
I know I was the one who walked away
and I guess I do regret something to this day
There has only been two things in my life
that I would have ever changed
and both had to do with you
I wont be able to fix them
until your a part of me again
I don't know if I can wait until I am 25
but I know the time is soon again
Remember our last thoughts
our last words
remember what your heart really says
mine says it too
its time to stop being scared
I am sorry for my mistake
but I wont be able to forget it
Until all this is sorted through
Forgive me
Like I have forgiven you
bless our gift once more

I just want to say

I just want to say
I miss you...
I miss your smile
your laugh
your touch
even your gently angry voice
I miss the smiles we shared
the laughs we have always had
the inside jokes only you and I would know
the love that's so unconditional
I miss everything about you
I miss the looks you would give me
the pet name only you would call me
I dream of the day
that the promise we share comes true
because I know you love me
the same way I love you
I miss your friendship
the thought that you are near
I miss your smile
and your gorgeous eyes
your dark hair
and your guilty mind
I miss everything about you
good, bad and everything in the middle
I miss you
and that's all there is to it
now I just wish I could tell you

Subconsciously

Subconsciously I am Afraid
I am so scared to let someone in
I just feel ashamed
I can hide
I can play
I can be everything expected
but I cant stay
its like I am being tormented
I am full of this stolen power
But I am not afraid
I have nothing to lose
You with me have nothing to gain
its life's never ending game for me
sadly I have already played my ace
I have already lost
Although I walk with grace
You will never even remember my face
I will push you away
I will run I will stray
Don't get attached
you need to know this
time for me has collapsed

Play Rewind Stop Fast Foward

I just want to hit play
I try to keep things going
but that's not working
nothing ever seems to go my way
I look back at you
and think of us
I look to the future
and know what suppose to be done
Time has frozen but I am still aging
I am still moving
I can't seem to breath though
each breath in feels like nothing
lingers to my lungs
I feel blue in the face
and wonder how things got so out of place
I remember where I made the biggest mistake
I lost my heart
and can never get it back
my soul stayed with you
so now its everything about me I lack
I try to push forward
but don't deserve anything
This hole inside me just keeps ripping
burning me to nothing
I pull my arms around my corpse
to feel a pulse less body
as God as my witness
I will catch myself
but I will still be loving you
and my heart, my soul
will still be what I lack

Free? to be me?

I am no myself
I know this
but how do I change
what everyone sees me as
how do I go back
to just being me
not the model
not the Hollywood everyone knows
Just Tasha,
the girl who talks to everyone
I don't want to be a heart breaker
I don't want to run with anyone's soul
I don't want to be the one who
everyone sees in there own perception
all there deception!
I keep falling down
but keep my composer
I am just looking for love
trying to find someone who will except my
black and blue
battered heart
and possibly repair it
and put it above
I don't want to be anything but me
and that's all I am asking for
from anyone
just to accept
and let me live free

At least who you used to be!

Your suppose to be the one I confide in
the one who would listen
the one who I knew no matter where I went in life
I could turn to
It seems that I have been wrong
It seems that our time has come

now I no longer belong
I am no longer a part of you
but you keep a part of me
As we are blood
its strong yes
but not strong enough
I am immortal on the surface
but not all the way through
I KNOW I am not perfect
but neither are you
I just need to know
now that I obviously have been left behind
If you really resent me,
If you really hate me that much
I can no longer forget the hurt you have caused me
the pain you keep causing me
I love you but in your eyes
I am.. nothing
You seem to think that I only do wrong
that I don't do right
that I should no longer...
exist
so as I have been struggling
I ponder now if I should even
put up this fight anymore
I always looked up to you
but now....
I am speechless as to you
I know once I am gone
you will forget me
but I will never forget you!
At least who you used to be

Promise

You see that I am happy
and what you see holds to be true
You think that I am not even noticing
the difference from everyone
and the way you look at me too,
I try to keep my eyes light
and my face cheerful
I lie to myself to think I don't need you
our past is inevitable
our future we have a promise
something we both vowed to keep
its hidden inside of us
just waiting for one of us to speak,
I know you still feel the same way too
just because you tell me so
and the look you give me
its the same thing you used to do
you think that my smile
is because I am really better off with out you
that I am safer without you
that our worlds are better separated at this time
but look at everything
the way we make each other feel
the envy people still hold for our friendship
the voids people are trying to cause
if only they know how close we are
no matter how far apart we become
we will always be attached
we will always have our thoughts
we will always have that promise
that will change our lives forever
in just a few years
together

I only dream him

Sitting here imagining you
wondering if I could ever have you
Your perfect little smile
your adorable laugh,
Getting lost in your deep gorgeous eyes
and soothed by your gentle touch
When your near
I am only able to hear
a gentle drum beat
yet the only thing I can do is fear
fear the loss of you
before I even have you
Fear never seeing you
never meeting you
and forever being alone
I crave you in way that is inevitable
I know you exist
and my body
my mind
my heart wont let me love another
my standards are set
so in my dreams you will rest
till I find you in fates path
I will imagine you
in every way shape and form
and see you in my dreams!

I am or am I?

I am the sapphire salt crystal
that streams like a waterfall
down your soft and delicate cheeks
I am your every breath
that you take
as your struggling for weeks
I am the girl no one sees
the one who is impossible to be
My fears starting to finally show through
as I try to overcome
all the frights that became
unbearable
I am but a breeze on a hot summer day
and a mere thought
a glimpse of a past life
a past memory
I am but the one who's words can no longer portray
I am the one who's voice is tranquil
soothing you with each sound
like music to your ears
it becomes your new lullaby
I am nothing and yet
I am everything
or am I?

I LOVE YOU

Secrets of a lost love
Hind behind your
Somber brown eyes

Pain shows through
on your sunkist bronze skin
and fear is in your heart
know I just dont know

where to start
to help you heal
you need to be ready
to let someone in,
to let someone show you,
they care,
remove the chestnut hair
from your face
hold your chin up
your life can never be replaced
so keep a smile on your face
when your alone
and you want to cry
think of me
and not that guy
I'm your friend
till the very end
I'm here for you
no matter what comes your way
remember that
each and every day!

the one and only for me

This life
this time
I wonder if anything is right
I wonder if I will find the one I dream of
I will be holding my breath
till that moment
When I get the overwhelming feeling
and I walk hand and hand with the one who feels the way I do
the one who I will spend the rest of my life with
and want the same things too
I had him once
twice I thought
will there be a third
will there be a charm
will I ever be able to find him
and walk on his arm
I don't see much to far ahead
just looking back
and I fear I already been through
the best years of my life
If I could go back
I would hug and kiss you
every moment I could
Show you how much I adore you
and everything that really could be
If anything is possible
is it possible that you will keep your promise to me
that my third time around
will be with you
the one and only for me

Heaven

Heaven is being in your arms,
Having you whisper you love me,
And you telling me what your heart desires,

Heaven is what your smile is,
What your touch is
Even what your voice is,

Heaven is you getting mad,
and not wanting to tell me,
and trying to surprise me,
with dinner plans,
oh how sweet,

Heaven is the look that you give me,
When I do something wrong,
When I do something right,
Or when I don't even do anything at all,

Heaven is just being around you,
knowing that you care,
and knowing that your always there,
but most importantly......

Heaven is the way you make me feel!

Always Mama's boy!

So confused what to do
not knowing why

you do what you do

I'm so lost and confused
you make my heart turn blue

you take my soul
and make me feel
FORBIDDEN!
when I wash my hands
They wont come clean
when I cry myself to sleep
you ruin my dreams
don't know how to tell you this
but you make me feel ashamed
I love you to death
and I don't know why
because you fill my heart full of lies
you ruin my dreams
and break your promises
you tear me apart
and leave me that way
why cant you for once
stop your stupid play
be real with me
because that's what i need
be real with me
because I am being real
with you right now
we are done for now
until you see
the harm you have caused
take off your Mommy's boy mask
and grow up

Pain stricken with to much pride

This pain inside me needs to go away
I cant help but wonder why it stays
lingers deep within
Gives me pain that makes me immobile
coils me up in a ball
with no one to comfort me in this never ending brawl
I wonder how I will keep going
and if this pain will ever end
It feels like someone is killing me from within
a knife cutting my organs
dull and rusty
jabbing to a gut wrenching beat
tears slowly stream down my face
that's inevitable with each puncture
something grabbing each slaughtered piece
ripping with impeccable strength
you hear a crack
a broken rib
you hear a shatter
a broken pelvis
crunching sounds make me uneasy
as I scream in torture
now someone fighting me not only from within

bruised where bruises wont appear
oceans filling with each clear salty drop
feeling the hole get bigger and bigger
I try to hold myself together
enclosed in my own arms
Sobbing wanting needing
this tortured pain to disintegrate
each day just putting on a healthy face
a mask that hides
this anguished corpse
Only if someone knew
all the pain I really go through

Maybe someday

sitting here I begin to think about all my surroundings
wishing my friends and family the best
I begin to think its time for me to leave
be separated from everyone
I know I will last on my own
but will I be able to really cease
to want everyone here to forget me
to not remember my existence
possibly my spirit
actually would anyone even notice I am not around
I wonder in fright that maybe I am just a mere last minute thought
but then I think of all my friends
and the great memories we share
think of my family and how much they need me here
I remember the heart ache to leave them on there own
to leave my family fighting
for peace
to leave my friends
without there Hollywood
I wonder who could handle it
and who would wish me to stay
I try to do my best
to tell them all I love them each and everyday
but will this be enough
will they let me grow
even tho it wont be near
will they let me leave with understanding
not objective
knowing that they are always a part of me
and always will be
I wonder so many things
and I may never get my any answers
but then again
maybe someday

I hope you absorb in tranquillity

You keep asking questions
that cant be answered simply
you want to know why
I don't talk to you anymore
you wonder what you did wrong
and when it was
but it happened over time
you became to fanatical
for some reason you PUSH
you try harder
its so melodramatic
your presence feels malevolent
your prescriptiveness of understanding
someone Else's wants
someone Else's needs
is so unbearable
that it blind sides someone
it makes them feel
almost oblivious to what you are
what you are doing
it makes them feel apprehensive
annoyed
and hardly willing to be around
I don't want to be malicious
its not my nature
I just want you to know
all I want is friendship from you
that's all I have ever wanted
that's all I ever will want
I hope you understand
all that I don't like
someone else may
Its just not my cup of tea
to be hovered over everyday
I don't want to hurt you
so hopefully after you read this things will be okay
and talking between us may come
but who knows whats in store
till then I wish you the best of luck

Gifted?

so here is the thing
I dont know where you are
or who you are
but I know you are out there
I dont know where I am going
and what I am doing
but I feel your guidance
I back away from those you say to
I hold those close that I am compelled to
I am growing
I am changing
and I feel this inside of me
I know that things are not always done right
or even done the way you would want me to do them
I know that it is hard for reasons
and everything I have and will go through
only makes me stronger
but I know I am not alone
at any time
for any means
I feel your gifts compell me to be more
I feel your here
although I am alone
who are you
what are you
and why am I gifted with your presence?

LISTEN

Okay so here it is
I am not anything special
I am not perfect
I am not someone to always be right
I am 100% not any where close to being who i used to be
But I am a powerful woman
a strong woman
a unique woman
I am not someone to push around
to walk all over
or treat like I am worth nothing
I deserve as much respect as the next person
I deserve just as much as you do
you think its okay to walk around with your nose in the air
you think its okay to sit. talk shit and stare
Listen to everyone around you for once
shut up and stop talking over everyone else
No one cares about your BS
No one cares about your lies
your games
its time to grow up and leave your anger behind
there is no reason for you to act like your better
we are all created the same!
we are all equal!
we are all just human!

with out

Since you came into my life...
You have given me the best everyday and night...
I felt my happiness in you...
Thought I was dreaming...
was too good to be true...
You bought peace to my mind and comfort to my soul...
Everything about you just made me feel like I was whole...
You gave my life a deeper meaning...
You gave me something to believe in...
It took me a while to realize...
The life I had been living was nothing but a lie...
Thought I was gonna die...
But you listened to me cry...
You shared my pain and never said goodbye...
I felt like I was losing my mind...
My life started to rewind...
The flashbacks I visualised became too painful...
My mind, body and soul became fearful...
My eyes shed tears,
but my weeping made no sound...
I longed for someone,
yet I didn’t want to be found...
You held onto me, you made me stronger...
If I carried on like this,
I wouldn’t live much longer...
But you made me feel like it was gonna be alright...
The darkness in my world slowly turned into light...
You kept me going, still mine always here for me...
So why was it so hard to face reality...?
Truth don’t hurt but it kills when you can see...
whats really going on between you and me...
They say true love is very hard to find...
I’m lucky...
i found you, your one of a kind...
I wouldn’t know who I am...
I wouldn’t know where im at...
I wouldn’t know why im here...
I wouldn’t know what to do…
without you...
Wouldn’t be able to live life even if I tried to...
I loved you from the start...
I love you from the bottom of my heart...
And even though we are far apart...
Your always gonna be my sweetheart...
I love you more everyday...
I love you more than ever...
I love you for always and forever...

You dont deserve me

nothing i ever did pleased you
turning my back now would be easy
because hurtful words are all thats said
i will promise not to miss you
and try to hide the truth inside
for right now i am saying good bye
i am going to try to forget the look you gave
saying you wanted me
the way you knew what i needed
and i will learn to live without the love we shared
the happiness that dissapeared
i promise i wont live a lie
and i am trying to say good bye
im going to try
i will show you im over you
with every vow i make
i will not miss you now!
ive learned my lesson
wish there was no bitter ending
and im sorry for your insecurities
but you made me that much stronger
and this was the life i was given

I am but a ghost

The hollywood affect

Well I have my eyes on the prize

I always was the girl next door

the one who you
would always come and talk to

well now I’m making six figures
working 3 days a week

my little black book is full

and I’m not a princess anymore
You look at me a little different

and now your not the only one I see
I plan on shaking up the north
And never looking back
Just moving forward
I didn’t get where I am at
By slacking off

worked harder then ever before

just to get my foot in that door

now stronger and smarter

your wishing it was you I adore

well good luck

I figured out I am better than that

better than this

I am independent

no longer taking anyone’s shit
I'm going to live life
like today is my last day
never living it twice
because in the end the prize is worth the fight

One veiw

Everyone looks in one direction
sees one thing,
believes there veiws are right

but what is right?

what can anyone really do to prove there veiw

is...inevitable
for people to wonder

if there is a little bit of chage
is it okay
if someone starts to think different
believe different
act different
is there possiblities

for people to not want to think on one path
see one color
one grace of world
looking at things on a path of insecurities
what is safe
what belongs
in whos eyes are things always right
in who's eyes do they decide who belongs
one view brings onself
nothing but oneself

Thinking of things
wishing they meant something
moving foward
and never looking back
not regreting a thing
but knowing all is not well
there is still something I lack
trying to figure out
why I do what I do
trying to think about all the things
that life is throwing my way
working hard
trying to stay on this path
not knowing where I will end up
only hoping that there will be
something worth while in the end
and someone, someday
will help take care of me

Walk away or Stay?

I have sat back and watched many things happen in life
watched people fall in love
friends move away
young children dying for no reason,
things left unsaid
things left undone
I cant sit here and watch anymore
I cant believe that you would be the leaving kind
be the kind of person to just walk away
from everything that you really do feel
from everything you have experienced
I was mad at you for awhile
started to lose my faith
and think everything
meant nothing
then I got to hear your voice
realized you are just scared
and didn't want to believe
what was right in front of your eyes
I need to tell you
no matter what you do
everything that once was
will always be
those things you wanted to leave behind
wont let you leave them
you wont be able to say good-bye
with out knowing its what is right
and you wont know unless you try
so I ask you now
this day we are friends again
are you going to try and walk away
knowing where your heart is
or are you going to try and make amends

Alone

I ask myself many things,
am I alone?
am I doing things right?
Why, is it we always fight?
Can I make things stop,
Can I fix this,
Can we be like before,
always happy
confiding,
friends,
Wondering if you will ever see
what you keep turning your back on,
hoping someday you will remember
the people who love you the most
I keep trying
always end up crying
the river keeps flowing
with no one ever knowing
wishing you would listen
but you just think I'm stupid
I really do miss you,
now I have no one to protect me
just being so lost
I have no idea why i keep trying
You keep pushing me,
telling me I'm nothing,
worthless,

Just wanting to be something,
let me check,
yep still nothing
the feelings are so morale
I'm just.... alone!

Something

There are some things people cant change
some things that belong
and some things that you can never understand
not knowing where to go at times
not knowing what to do
you make choices
even when your confused
you don't always realize
the things you are doing
whats right in front of you
or even what your saying
but somehow
someone does
someone is
and someone will
you will always be okay
even when you are at your worst
it will seem like forever since you were wonderful
and worry free
but someday it will happen for you
like I am hoping it will happen for me.
Someday things will fall into place
and everything will seem perfect
Someday everything will be understood
and you wont have any questions left unanswered
but that choice is yours with the path you choose
keeping that in mind

because someday may be today for you

somewhere to belong

There are some things people cant change
some things that belong
and some things that you can never understand
no know where to go at times
not even understanding of where you are
your just looking for somewhere to belong
you get confused
and fall flat on your face
you only see the negativity
in the way people are looking at you
but is that really what they are doing
or are you just looking at them that way
are you holding onto all the pain
never feeling anything real
never understand anything
ever again
never knowing anything ever again
until you break away from these habits
and you find yourself
you let go of all that pain and anger
and you find what you have wanted all along
and you realize the looks were never there

I am but alone

Everyone seems to be trying
trying to figure out why on the inside I am crying
They push,
and I go further away,
The pry
and I just sit back and watch
I dont want to open up to you
I'm sorry but right now,
I need to be lost,
I dont want to tell you good-bye
but please just give me some time
I'm screaming on the inside,
I dont want it to be seen
thats for a reason,
not to be mean,
Stop asking so many questions
you wont ever get your answer,
stop looking at me like that
I dont know if you will ever have that
I am sitting here right now
thinking its okay
its so unreal
I dont know even how I feel
So forgive me for this time
this space I am asking for
forgive me for my words
I really do mean well

Dont seem right

Sometimes things don't seem right,
I fall back and lose my sight,
Push foward to only become lost,
and never seeing whats right in front of me,
Becoming something I cant even describe,
something I dont even know what is,
looking to find out,
I try not to hide,
sometimes I wonder,
is this where I'm suppose to be
am I doing things right this time?
the path I have most recently chosen,
is not one well traveled,
I know there will be faults
things I cannot control,
I wonder though,
who will take this journey with me,
who wont let me go alone,
with the world turning so fast
day turns to night
night turns to day,
things keep changing
seasons come and go,
but my true friends show
I love you guys,
and hope this journey
never grows old!

The underlying Sensation

love is terrifying trust it once and
you could be eternal but trust it twice
and your doomed for misery
fate tempts all but life only lets me fall
happiness is a feeling long missed
now im lost and confused
and no one sees me quiver and twist
i will push on i will sore high
i will become more then just a simple mind
to show you now
who i am is to show you life to show you then
wasnt anything but strife
falling off my rocker
only now to see
what i was always scared would happen
finally did happen to me
not wanting to cause harm
still dont make others understand
girls i dont want your man
i want to be single thats where i stand
hes all yours
all i want is a friend with a helping hand
fellas you know the drill
ima tom boy still
help me kick back and make my life chill
for everyone your different thoughts
please respect me
say it to me or dont say it at all
respect yourself and stand tall
be brave and happy for who you are
no one makes you anything
you only make yourself something
to become everything
now with sweet revenge
i send prayers your way
i ask him for forgivness
and bless us all with another day

Once knew but no more

In a time of need it makes you wonder
who will be there and who will cease to exist
who will show you a helping hand
or turn there back
I thought I knew for sure when it came to you
I thought you were better than that
I dont know why but recently
you have changed my mind
best friends yes,
but in need of something more
I am debating on staying.
and stepping in that door once more
you seem to think all is known
life you no longer can explore
I try to help you along your path
but you explode like a time bomb
and your words just make me boggled
I wonder why, you think you cant have an open mind
I ponder how.
how you even think you are the person who decides who belongs
and when you will come back to reality and be the person I once knew you to be
but until then my friend do I say so long,
or do I take these aggrivating thoughts
do nothing and expect something to happen

Theres always more than one way to look at things, its just a matter of finding what way looks best:)

You think

You think you know me,
You think you know my story,
Where I come from, Where I'm going, What I'm doing,
but how do you know this, when I dont even know,
what am I suppose to do,
how am I suppose to tell you,
everything in my heart,
when it no longer belongs to you,
what am I suppose to do,
when I have nothing left for you,
each thing I go through,
each thing you do,
my hand is no longer with you,
I'm no longer a kid,
but I'm breaking all the rules,
I play the game against all you fools,
and yet you dont see,
I'm just the one you desire,
not the girl of your dreams!
I keep trying to walk away,
so my heart dont shatter again,
whats left it anyway.
just hoping to survive,
and start a new day.