time

Everyone seems to be trying
trying to figure out why on the inside I am crying
They push, and I go further away,
The pry and I just sit back and watch
I dont want to open up to you
I'm sorry but right now,
I need to be lost,
I dont want to tell you good-bye
but please just give me some time
I'm screaming on the inside,
I dont want it to be seen
thats for a reason,
not to be mean,
Stop asking so many questions
you wont ever get your answer,
stop looking at me like that
I dont know if you will ever have that
I am sitting here right now
thinking its okay
its so unreal
I dont know even how I feel
So forgive me for this time
this space I am asking for
forgive me for my words
I really do mean well

Grandma!

I shed a tear
not because you are gone
or because i'll miss your laugh
your quarky little spunk
or the smile you always had on your face
not because i'll miss the twinkle in your eye
or the way you showed us all how strong you were
and could put up a heck of a fight
I cry today
not because I wont have anyone to ask me for my rings
at least not the way you did
anyone to be proud of me
the way you were
a grandmothers love is rare
one of a kind
and grandma i'm glad you were mine
I shed a tear
today because
i'm thankful for your time
because i've heard your laugh
and like to think i've inherited at least a little of that spunk
seen that smile that glisened with that twinkle you always had
was shown to be strong
and when to fight
I cry today for the feeling that my rings are some how apart of you
that you are proud of me
no matter what I do or where I go
physically you may be gone
but I know you will
watch over us
and my life is now blessed
with your constant guiding grace