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I just want to hit play
I try to keep things going
but that's not working
nothing ever seems to go my way
I look back at you
and think of us
I look to the future
and know what suppose to be done
Time has frozen but I am still aging
I am still moving
I can't seem to breath though
each breath in feels like nothing
lingers to my lungs
I feel blue in the face
and wonder how things got so out of place
I remember where I made the biggest mistake
I lost my heart
and can never get it back
my soul stayed with you
so now its everything about me I lack
I try to push forward
but don't deserve anything
This hole inside me just keeps ripping
burning me to nothing
I pull my arms around my corpse
to feel a pulse less body
as God as my witness
I will catch myself
but I will still be loving you
and my heart, my soul
will still be what I lack