Maybe someday

sitting here I begin to think about all my surroundings
wishing my friends and family the best
I begin to think its time for me to leave
be separated from everyone
I know I will last on my own
but will I be able to really cease
to want everyone here to forget me
to not remember my existence
possibly my spirit
actually would anyone even notice I am not around
I wonder in fright that maybe I am just a mere last minute thought
but then I think of all my friends
and the great memories we share
think of my family and how much they need me here
I remember the heart ache to leave them on there own
to leave my family fighting
for peace
to leave my friends
without there Hollywood
I wonder who could handle it
and who would wish me to stay
I try to do my best
to tell them all I love them each and everyday
but will this be enough
will they let me grow
even tho it wont be near
will they let me leave with understanding
not objective
knowing that they are always a part of me
and always will be
I wonder so many things
and I may never get my any answers
but then again
maybe someday