A songless birds hearbroken fate

I keep trying
I keep pushing forward
I do what I feel is right
but for some reason
at the end of the day
I feel like I have done wrong
That I have done something to deserve
disappointment
I feel that I am not able
able to believe anymore
that I am not able
to be anything anymore
I feel guilty
ashamed
taken over and cant be
Understood
I try to stay on a straight path
but something tells me
I did something wrong
I am not whole when I am alone
it makes me feel like a coward
to go home alone
But night after night
since I gave you up
this is what I deal with
This is what helps me stay tough
it took me too long to figure out
what path I wanted to take
now the only thing I can do is wait
hope for our promise to take
and one day be thankful
for our gracious fate