Who's in Control

People always telling me
Where I have to be
Where I have to go
And who I have to be
I am getting sick of it all
tired enough not to even crawl
I cant do what everyone expects
I just want to be me
is that not enough
or do I still need your threats
you try to take away from who I am
yet I just want to be free from all this
Pain and Suffering
Everywhere I go
you all seem to throw it back in my face
I'm trying so hard
But feel I will never have my place
I cry alone
so you all don't see
everything that's eating away at me
I wont show you I am weak
Please note that
I am only as strong as a
heart filled person can be
I wish you wouldn't use me
I wish you wouldn't control me
I wish I had someone to trust
instead of someone to disown me
I will say to you in forgiveness
but I promise you I will not forget this!
You have caused me pain
but I am not heartless
Take what you will from me
But be good to the ones I love
because your already on my shit list:)
you may hurt me,

but them is another story!
so take what I have said
and take it in deep
because this is your only notice
you have no more chances with me
I am setting myself free